Monday, March 28, 2011
Don't take this wrong, but I love helping people, infact thats the only thing im good at and like doing apart from*fail bitching and fail flirting*..... but I can't help you if you don't tell me anything, I've seen u been sad lately and I seriously wanna know why. Sorry if you don't understand how I feel but I'm sorry that a joke has just hit you.
You can't tell me that you feel like dying or that you can't live anymore... like Bill Maher once said "If you thought life was tough, read history books". You have no idea how anxious you make me feel, your giving me fill in the blanks but theres no words only pictures drawn by a kid who thinks bears are cute and cuddly rather than deadly killers..
I sit back and watch or I can help, either way its win win for me, not u..tbh either way your fckd but to wat degree?
It's not all doom and gloom @ |{4:29 AM|
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Friday, March 25, 2011
Whenever I talk to you I feel like everythings gonna be fine
Whenever I talk to you I feel like I'm talking to a kid
If it wasn't for you I'd probably be dead by now
Although that feeling freaks you out it shouldnt because it's just a ride
I've realised that instead of looking at the time in the hope that its gone past that instead I should just enjoy nothing instead of complaining about nothing. What's this nothing you speak of? Well ironically that is something.
Humans try and resist temptation but sometimes I can be just too much for one to take.
"it felt so wrong, it felt soo right" I kissed a girl by Katie perry
I don't want the friendship to end because your such a special friend to me, losing you as a friend would be like fat kid missing chocolate.
I have a conviction but now its a question of "is my mind willing to accept the flow of my heart into your cute sweet arms".
It's not all doom and gloom @ |{3:13 AM|
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Thursday, March 24, 2011
In no order.
1. War- Edwin Starr
2. Everybody's talkin- Harry Nillson
3. You can't always get what you want- Rolling Stones
4.Imagine- John Lennon
5. Sweet Caroline- Neil Diamond
It's not all doom and gloom @ |{2:18 AM|
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Everybody's talking at me
I don't hear a word they're sayin'
Only the echoes of my mind
People stopping staring
I can't see their faces
Only the shadows of their eyes
I'm going where the sun keeps shining
Thru' the pouring rain
Going where the weather suits my clothes
Banking off of the north east wind
Sailing on a summer breeze
And skipping over the ocean like a stone
I'm going where the sun keeps shining
Thru' the pouring rain
Going where the weather suits my clothes
Banking off of the north east wind
Sailing on a summer breeze
And skipping over the ocean like a stone
Everybody's talking at me
Can't hear a word they're sayin'
Only the echoes of my mind
I won't let you leave my lovely hand
No I won't let you leave
I won't let you leave my lovely hand
I won't let you leave
Incase you didn't realise this is the lyrics to one of my favourite songs. The songs called Everybody's talkin by Harry Nilsson. Heres why I love this song.
It's made me realise that although I will never be happy with what I have or who I am, that I should just accept that the "echos of my mind" will always be there regardless.. so instead of being scared of this echo I should embrace it and emancipate the emotion I have as oppose to envying the heart and lives of others
It's not all doom and gloom @ |{2:11 AM|
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I hate to put this to you but, I don't think I can take life seriously.
Life is just a dream that is emancipated by love and dreams in the heart yet despised in the mind.
When I look back at my past I realise and ponder in relief:How did I get to where I am now?
It feels like such a drag yet such a relief.
I have been thinking about death but I don't think I'll ever change, for as long as I live, I will challange my mind with logic yet fill my heart with the emotions and characteristics of a child. We may feel like none loves us and we may not think of ourselves as perfect but the truth is. There is someone in the world who love you for who you actually are *Litterally* and that "you will never think of yourself as perfect". In a philosophical sense, perfect is a concept which is impossible to acheive and in a scientific sense, the mind has a "judgement nerve" *something like that* and I'm not kidding.
Soo.. I will never be happy but for as long as I live I will try and enjoy the ride like a little kid thats been shown a Domo-kun for the first time.
It's not all doom and gloom @ |{4:24 AM|
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Saturday, March 19, 2011
Accept the emancipation of the human mind while your heart and spirit cling on to the inevitable and justifiable rationale that we should be happy.
The notion that we are all dommed as disgusting hate mongering irrational humans is disingeous, misinterpreted and incorrect.
I am cynical about the world because I want it to be better, although my words contradict themselves I see hope that everyone should drop down their weapons and hatred and just live as if nothing in the world has happend.
Put that notion into your mind and then you will understand me more
It's not all doom and gloom @ |{1:22 AM|
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Friday, March 11, 2011
" Americans tend to talk themselves up, Australians will talk themselves down but Australians will talk up other people" Adam Hills
You may think your: gifted,awesome,talented,happy and special but the reality is far from it. Usually if you believe this you tend to be stuck up, from experience you wont last. I'm sorry but its the truth, reality is going to hit you hard, in practice it feels like a ride, in reality it's like waterboarding *you will feel like your drowning but you never will be*. Although this is a general idea this applies to this one person.
Don't change for others, just keep being a stuck up bitch, keep doing that, it aint gonna get you far.
Like Bill Maher once said "your accusing me of prejudice, I'm not prejudging, I'm judging." Nones asking you to change, just be less of a bitch.
Your not who you think you are, you may think that your dumb but your not....you think your smart but your not. For those people that think they are dumb, the reality is, for as long as cynacism and sheer logic dominate the mind, it will always be like this. For stuck up people...you arent going to last long, the only difference is, reality has hit me but for you, reality is slowly approaching, I wish it didnt but it will..
As much as love doesnt forever, neither does pain, people do end eventually.
"Nothing is real but love and dreams"..
It's not all doom and gloom @ |{4:13 AM|
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011
The planet is fine the people are fucked, we are all filled with ambition but we are dellusionalised with the illusion that life looks so easy. People think they know everything but they don't, although nothing is how it seems we always take our first perception, it's human nature, you know how like guys always have sexual thoughts, same concept but less interesting.
In my world you are not safe, no one loves you, your only here as a rejected display, you will be used, bitched about and attacked, there is no safe havens, only corners of uninhabitated fears which can be turned into triumphant glory.
Life is like capitalism: inorder for it to work, people must die, people must be destroy. There will be a winner and just like capitalism, it doesn't matter how you win, just as long as you win, thats all that matters.
I am losing, we are losing, but I do feel like I'm drowing, it is impossible to get me out of this abyss but yet I don't know how I got in. The only thing stopping my ride from ending is my body which is epic fail at protecting itself,soo the objective in life is to not die, I think I might fail the test
It's not all doom and gloom @ |{3:37 AM|
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Saturday, March 5, 2011
You screwd up big time. It wasn't easy but yet you did. Many will just simply call you a bitch or as my friend called you " A fucking putrid mut" , but I will explain what you did wrong.. or as my idols bill hicks, george carlin and bill maher would say: "Hey shut the fuck you may actually learn something". Soo here it goes.
You kept yourself hidden from everybody else, although privacy is a must it is disingenous to build a fence around your life, to just hope that only one person will go in and that you wont have to open the door. We asked you questions to which you would just say "not telling" or " you'd like to know wouldnt ya?". We didnt want to hate you, you thought that you could just love one person and not know everything around them. So the first thing is: you failed in knowing your ex's friends which as all sane people who have dated know is a MUST.
You broke my cute, awesome weird piano loving,reminisscant of anime girl's heart. To you it may be nothing, to them it's the worst thing you can do. You just said:lets move on. Well unlike you I still talk to my ex. You didn't say sorry, you just took it, although she is fine, everyone else around her thinks that your world is laughable, dreadful and full of fuck all hope. What you should of done is: admit that you failed, say it didn't work out or just be damn and honest and say "I got bored with you because i've loved you for long enough". Buddy, SHE gave you the benefit of the doubt and then you just forgot that ever happened.
You annoyed me by telling me bullshit.. I know when shit is a lie or not. You were never honest, you never reliable, you were never trusted, I never gave you a chance to prove yourself because you rejected what I had to say. Once that happened you wondered why your relationship wasn't going anywhere but then it never hit you. I'm influental to her, if you can convince me, then you can convince pretty much anyone but you failed so sorry *not*.
The infamous outing last december. You failed at every step. You tried to drag her away from me and everybody else. It shows many things such as : your an inconsiderate little douche and that your also bad with people. You were the problem, you didn't realise but now its too late. If you want to bitch about me then bring it. You knew I was depressed, you knew I was jealous of relationships and then you tried to hit on her whenever you could infront of me... so smart aye?
Trying to make out infront of a suicidal person jealous of relationships is like eating kfc in a north korean concentration camp. It's sad, it's stupid and most of all its a horrible reality.
Ironically you stopped talking to my best friend after the break up... so does that mean you were using that person? Looks like you were otherwise you'd still be talking to that anime loving guy with dogs. So you used 2 people... cheers
And we havent even gone through my other problems.
But the saddest part of all "drum roll*.. you told her that "you weren't ready for a relationship"... so then why are you dating a chick now?... You must be stupid to think that we wouldnt notice. You brought this all on yourself, if your contemplating suicide and you want help then my rule is : You must shut the fuck up, quit cutting yourself, stop watching hentai, get with the real world. Not only will you learn something but you'll also be less of a cunt, well hopefully.
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I don't call it ranting, I call it honest reflection of events.
Anyways.. today I did lots of work *wink wink* and I bought the SNSD photobook..OMG IGOAHNFVD;LSGFNGFNL;KAVL;KAVfhoafho1 L. SOOOO HAPPPY!!!!!!
random imagine what a chick does then yea... let you figure out the rest with either your peverted mind or lalalalalallalalallallalala BOOO! mind
It's not all doom and gloom @ |{3:56 AM|
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Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Recently my dad and I had a discussion about the fact that I wanted to drop engineering at school and heres why. Engineering is something that makes the world go round BUT my teacher is ineffective and crap...say all you want about how they are valuable to society but if there is no foundation, the whole thing falls, just like a cake except a cake is awesome because it tastes sweet *that is unless you put salt in instead*.
"None at your school does french so why would you do it?" It's not because I like doing its also because I'm not good at engineering. I told my dad "but I don't understand the work"..he just said "read a book or I'll read it for you"...ok think of it this way, just because you read the book doesnt mean you'll understand it.example: One could be given a piece of blues to analyse. George Carlin once famously point out "it's not just good enough to know how to play, you need to know why it needs to be played".
This brings me to my point: Let people choose what they are good at.. I would fail engineering *hence me dropping it soon*, THERE IS absolutely no point in studying something which you will fail in, if less and less people are learning it then doesnt that mean that itll be better... look at the amount of people that speak latin, not many it seems.
Inother words, choose your own future, people may know what you want but they won't know 99% exactly what they want. Do something which meets the balance: is influentual to society and is something you enjoy.. Telling a child he will become a doctor is like telling an adult "your gonna retire at 60".
Now.. everyone, I'd choose french over engineering, either make engineering interesting or shut up. Try before you buy, I'm not impressed with the 2nd option
It's not all doom and gloom @ |{11:33 PM|
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